November 14th, 2006: I went with X to coffee and he hasn’t called since. It’s me. It has to be me. And my hips. I’m completely alone and feel forgotten… While life is zooming by, I’m crawling through quicksand. Help me be content and show me what in the world I’m suppose to do with my life.
November 14th, 2007: Jealously has overtaken me. I can’t stop comparing my life to hers! A year later and my prayer is the same: pull me from this pit and show me what to do with my life. I’m empty and alone and now officially rejected from two writing houses. Not only do boys not like me, two publishers stopped contracting me to edit for them. REJECTED!
November 14th, 2008: All week you have been speaking to me about faith. I know I’m suppose to have faith in you, so bear with me when I seem faithless. I know you have plans for me. I trust in you. …Serving in ministry has been a huge blessing in my life and meeting new people has brought such joy. As always, reveal your will for my life. And while you’re at it, bring me a good looking man. Kidding. Well, half kidding.
November 14th, 2009: …He’s truly amazing and loves me for me. Not only does he understand what I do, but Matt is actually serving alongside me for the Thanksgiving outreach?! But more than that, I’ve quit asking for you to reveal your will in my life and I trust that every step I take will be directed by you. Empower me to do your will by filling me with your holy spirit. Lordy, you know I need me some power!
November 14th, 2010: Five years. It’s been five years of writing in this journal and I can see your hand in all of it. You’ve never left me or forgotten me. You’ve never let me abandoned you even when I pushed you away. In the darkest of times, you were working. In moments of silence, you watched on with care. In moments of depression, you met me where I was. Five years of journaling have revealed to love me. You really, really love me.
Tidbits of my journal entries. Pieces of my heart. Fragments of seasons passed. So much has changed. So much has remained the same. But in all seasons never stop talking to the One who cares. To the One who hears. To the One who knows our story more than we ever could.
thanks for sharing!! u have totally encouraged me to start my own journal regarding my relationship with God…a lot of time we forget how much he has carried us throught the hard parts of life and also the blessing He has given us, even in the times we were truly doubting…gracias amiga!
November 14, 2006…I am there now. I pray everyday that I will find what I am supposed to do with my life. I pray that I will make an impact in the life of someone else. I pray that my children will like me when they are older. I pray that I can be the wife I am supposed to be. I pray that each step I take is one that is taken in the right direction
You make me want to journal. Like in a journal. To see progress. To see the Lord at work. Hmmmm….
You inspire me everyday, Bianca. So thankful for you! 🙂
I think I really needed to read this today… thank you for sharing!
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I love looking back over journals to see his hand at work… i think i'm overdue… 🙂
Thank you for opening your heart…. you are a blessing and an encouragement !
Wow!
I really needed to read this today…
Thanks for keeping it real 😉
I am sure you are even more excited to see what your entry for next year will be!
Love!!!!
HE is so very faithful
Possibly one of my favorites! Love this, so encouraging!
That is so beautiful and heartwarming. You're on a righteous journey, thanks for sharing bits of it with us.
thanks for sharing bianca! sometimes i go back through my journal entries just to see where the Lord has brought me and what He has taught me… it's amazing what He has done 🙂
trying to hold back the tears…
thanks for being you! and for reminder to open up my journal and WRITE! 🙂
I am so guilty of failing to journal regularly, but thanks for the reminder of how important it is! Thank you Bianca 🙂
So cool to look back and see the Lord's faithfulness. Loved meeting you this weekend!
It's stories like this that convince me that I NEED to keep a journal! To remind that God is always there and faithful, to help me see where I've grown and where I still need to grow. Thank you for sharing!
Amazing and beautiful post – seriously, this was so refreshing.
oh how i love this.
i need to look back more.
i need to write more.
how beautiful that God saw today’s entry when you wrote your first one 5 years ago…and even before that. 😉
Lord, Give me kingdom eyes and the heart to seek you no matter what season I’m in!!!
Beautiful. Just Beautiful. Thanks Bianca.
I can't thank you enough for this, I'm at a very painful and confusing time in my life, one of those days with no ending, it's battle after battle, God bless you Bianca.
LOVE!! Thank you:) I bet you dont know how cool this post is lol So encouraging.
Many people have said this to you in blog comments- but again, Thank you for being so transparent! You're a great example of what a Woman of God is and looks like.
I'm in your 2006 version right now… working on the thankfulness & trust of the 2010 version…
I LOVE this! I journal as well but find it difficult to be consistent. Love how you were able to see how God has been by your side throughout those five years.
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