Sometimes doing what God calls us to do is overwhelming. Whether it’s going to college, changing baby diapers, remaining in law school, or standing behind a pulpit, there are moments when we ask ourselves, Am I really made for this?
My knees knocked from nerves as I stood backstage and offered up prayers in rapid fire succession. There is something overwhelming about standing up to declare God’s awesomeness in front of tens, hundreds, or thousands of faces. The question is often posed, Why do you still get nervous? Nervousness is a small reminder that without God’s presence in my life, I cannot do what He’s called me to do.
And nervous I was as I walked onto stage with my iPad and prayer. I heard my voice echo in the auditorium, the lights shining down, and realized I couldn’t read my illuminated notes. I couldn’t see the words. My bullet-points, my highlights, my color coded notes were washed out in the lighting. In an internal moment of sheer panic, I defaulted to my natural defense: humor.
During that time, I held onto two things:
- God’s promises over my life
- The power of knowing I was covered in prayer
I can’t finish law school.I’m not cut out to be a parent.If I ask her out, she’ll say no.There’s no way I’m qualified to do this.
Bianca, you never marketed yourself. You never asked to be invited. You were simply doing what God has called you to and He used you. Trust that. Remember, there is nothing you need to do for God to use you except to be you. It’s better to be marked by God, than marketed by man, he said quoting the words of my boss.
Today I’m not on stage. I’m sitting behind a desk and sending 34,928 emails, eating my lunch of leftovers, and doing what God has called me to while remembering two things that I’m thankful for:
- God’s promises over my life
- The power of knowing I’m covered in prayer
If you’re feeling overwhelmed today by doing the big or small things of life, the seemingly pointless or incredibly critical, know that there are promises over your life to declare! You are marked by God, there is a work to be done, you are called and equipped, your are loved and anointed, you are promised an inheritance and as a Child of God, who can be against the will He has for you? The reciprocity of our relationship is that I get to pray for you. You’ve had my back and now I get to have yours.
In the words of my brilliant husband, just be you and trust that God has, is, and will do a work through your life.
Forever grateful,
B
Thanks for the encouragement. Today I’m called to
1. Play leggos
2. Role play, I’m spider mom tryig to catch spider babies
3. Change dirty stinky diapers
4. Cook eggs, mac n cheese, and dinner
5 I am called to do the simple basic things.. Not speaking in public, not ministering to the needy, not changing someone’s life dramatically..
I am simply called to change the lives of my children and teach them the word of God..
I know you didn’t ask what we were called for.. but your blog is very encouraging for me right now…
I love it. Thanks for sharing, Norma!
This makes my heart feel all warm and fuzzy 🙂 Thank you so much! I really hope you know that because of your vulnerability, it allows other people to break out of their shell and do what they are called to do. Thank you for staying true and being dedicated to your calling. It inspires myself and many other people to do the same.
Love you Bianca!
🙂
PS…really Matt? Quit being all amazing! You are blessed with a great husband who always points you to Christ!!
Awwww, you are so sweet! And yes, Matt does point me to Christ… but it’s annoying when I don’t want to!!! 😉
If there was a ‘like’ button, I’d be clicking the heck out of it to this comment 😉
Thank you, I needed this today as I have been struggling with what God wants me to do. I just move from Cali to Alabama about a month ago. Still jobless and going to school. In the midst of doing homework and looking for a job, I am struggling to find my place, the place God has for ME!! Also still praying and waiting for the one! Some days are just plain hard!!
Sarah, I promise I’ll be PRAYING for you. Keep us posted. I’m believing for God to do exceedingly abundantly more than we can think or imagine!
Amen! Thank You!!! You blog has blessed me so much!! Thank you!
Thank you for this! Today I am overwhelmed by a 21 month toddler that has more energy than edison, a four year old who thinks he is an avenger and changes costumes more than I have to say ” dont stand on that” to my toddler.
Questioning if I am “equipped” enough to stay home as my hubby is in Japan with the youth. Wondering why in the tiredness God has called me to also care for my 89 year old grandma during the week.
and then, it happened as my toddler stood on the computer desk (yes, the desk) wearing a captain america mask he looked at me barely can see his eyes thru the mask and recited the first five books of the bible or the waw (law) as he says it.
My four year old came in behind me and also chimed in with the gospels and in that moment of chaos, I know that God has called me and equipped me. I know that despite what I thought before kids what my “missions” looked like, today I dodge flying shields, costume changes and trying to teach them Jesus on the in between.
Its only been like four days since the hubs has been gone and the enemy can be a real jerk, so can you please keep us in prayer! Id appreciate it.. Thank you!
Great pic by the way!!!
Oh my gosh! Monica, I got so emotional reading your comment. F’real. You ARE equipped and you’re a great mom… just like my mom.
And as someone who has a sibling on that trip with your husband, I’m so grateful for you stepping up to help–even if it’s simply by being home.
I will be praying for you!!!
Bianca thanks for sharing, what spoke loud and clear to me is how you stated about being called and equipped. Who knew that 9 months ago the Lord would call us to be new parents again after 13 years by taking in our 2 month old nephew who was born premature and drug addicted, but like you stated I could not let all the worries and concerns overwhelm my mind, instead I knew that if this was Gods will He would equip us each and every day, oh and even in the middle of the night!! The Lord is faithful and I can go on and on about this journey our family is on but whats most important is that I hold on to the Lord and know that because He is in this, He has our back and thats all we need!! Please pray adoption is final soon!
Oh Ang! I can’t believe it. Wow, just wow. I promise I’ll be praying for you, Mario, and the family. You’re a great mom.
I too want to thank you for this blog. Inspiring!!!
Last week I got tired of fighting with God pushing me to step out, and contacted the Head of my church’s Women`s Ministry saying I`d like to get involved in some sort of Leadership capacity.
Today I was thinking “Who am I?”, “Am I nuts?”, “Me who lived as a “hermitess” for about 10 years, who am I kidding?” I was going to e-mail her and cancel next week’s meeting. This stepping out thing is really scary…
But, ok, I’m gonna do this thing even if it kills me!!
Your prayers for this ex-hermitess who would much rather have her head inside my “Strongs” or “Matthew Henry” etc, instead of talking with people would be much appreciated. Thanks for havin’ my back….
What?! That’s AWESOME! Let me know how the meeting goes.
And a bit of advice: Leadership starts at the bottom. If you want to lead, make sure you’re willing to follow 😉 XO
Thank you! I so needed this. God spoke through you straight to my innermost being. Blessings.
Werd.
I needed this now more than ever. Like so many others have commented, it resonated with me more than you will ever know. Thank you for sharing and thanks for the great birthday gift! 🙂
Birthday?! Issac it’s your BIRTHDAY?! WOOHOO! Happy birthday 🙂
Yep, it was yesterday! Thanks for the birthday wishes.
Bianca…
Thanks for the piece of advice. It’s very good advice, I will definitely keep that in mind.
Will let you know how the meeting goes….
that’s beautiful, Bianca! 🙂
Do you mean it when you say, “The reciprocity of our relationship is that I get to pray for you. You’ve had my back and now I get to have yours.”
If that was for us, your blog readers then I sure would like for you to pray for me. Can I e-mail you?
Alexis, I don’t know what you need, but I just lifted you up in prayer!
Thank you, Melanie! That was very sweet of you! I appreciate your prayers! 🙂
I LOVE community. We are all praying for each other!
I needed this today! Overwhelmed by the grades of nursing school, only God can proclaim my worth. Thank you for your encouragement 🙂
I ca only be rest assured of one most important thing here about Gods promises over my life.Most times am all alone and with all the issues….i always feel its only God that’s doing the necessary.I hardly feel people pray for me and i want to know and believe people are praying for me….what should i do?
Love it! Good word B! Was so blessed by this message
“You are marked by God, there is a work to be done, you are called and equipped, your are loved and anointed, you are promised an inheritance and as a Child of God, who can be against the will He has for you?”
Thank you so much for sharing these words. What an encouragement! God has placed me in youth ministry, and has also more recently called me to go back to school myself. Being at the university and seeing what happens once my kids leave the youth group realm and go into that new world has the potential to be pretty heartwrenching…even when He has blessed our group with amazing beautiful fruit as well.
I was encouraged by your thoughts and reminded that God who called me is faithful. =)
Bianca
Nervous????? You did not show it the night you spoke at CHIC. I honored enough to be right behind you “inside the 5” that night. You were nervous? We were nervous hoping you did not fall back on us? Kidding. I have watched your message from that night a few times since I have been home and it still moves me and pushes me each day. Notes??? God spoke through you that night!!!! (Even though the East Coast was sitting behind you after your West Coast, Best Coast comment) This post has moved me more and given me strength when I feel week and not worthy. I am not always sure if I have the right words, but I know I leave it in God’s hands, the rest will take care of it self. Am I doing the right thing today? I am finding through your words and encouragement that I am because of it is not my way but His way. I am just the vessel that he sought out. We out here on the East Coast continue to pray for you and your great ministry.