I need to write this out. I need to remember these feelings. I need to wrestle through the little and big things in my life. I need to chronicle this journey because if I don’t know where I’ve come from, I will not know where I’m going.
Last week I had a breakdown in my office. No one knew, no one saw, no one needed to find out. It was just me. In my office. Alone. In a moment of pounding stress, I lost it. I literally spoke out loud to God [like a crazy lady from Venice beach with her 85 cats] and asked the questions every 20-something asks:
What am I doing? Where am I going? What do you want from me?
You would think I have this whole thing figured out. But I don’t. As a ControlFreak who loves having my Garmin spurt out turn-by-turn directions, I want God to do the same. Because honestly, I’m going full steam ahead into pitch black darkness.
My life is unglamorous. I wake up at 4:45am to workout, blog, and spend time with God. Then I shower, put on heels, pack a lunch, sit in traffic, send 1,395,982,507 emails from my small office covered with post-it notes, sit in traffic again, lather, rinse, repeat. I’m exhausted. I’m tired. I’m wondering if what I’m doing is what God wants me to do.
Then I remembered the words I shared with Maxine over bread at dinner: So what? Just do it! Sometimes I give really good advice. It would be nice if I listened to myself. In those moments I know it’s not ME, but the spirit of the Lord who is within me to share Truths.
As Public Relations & Media coordinator, I’m in the midst of launching our new church website, copy writing, planning Passion Week, facilitating our guest speakers and guest bands, oh yeah, annnnnd trying to study for Saturday’s speaking event [which is bubbling over with whispers of people who are bothered that I’m speaking… so hurtful]. In addition to this I still don’t have a dress to wear for Easter!
So this is me–broken and wounded. But I’m still the girl ambitious enough to think the world can change through the love and leading of Jesus Christ. My greatest desire is to round up ordinary people and have God transform us into fearless, EXTRAordinary leaders who want to save the world.
Yes, I will provide the capes.
Thank you for listening and loving me through this journey,
:B
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