We sat around her brown table, sipped on chilled drinks, and laughed at how much of our life has changed. In our busy worlds the cosmos graciously aligned and allowed my mom, my sister, and me to all have a small window in our day for an impromptu lunch. I made the food [I’ve always been the responsible caretaker], Mom drove into town [in good health and spirits], and Jasmine… well, Jasmine looked good [it’s apparently very hard being beautiful]. We caught up on life, banalities of everyday living, and remembered.

We rememebered. Together.

A small power we possess in life is the ability to look back and remember what has been survived, what has been conquered, what has been saved. I drove away from our quick lunch remembering…

…remembering the room I shared with Jasmine
…remembering the glasses I wore and headgear Jasmine donned when we were 12
…remembering the empty refridgerator and barren pantry
…remembering the woman who miraculously made us sugarless oatmeal for breakfast and tomato soup for lunch
…remembering the moments mom would scream at us for fighting and make us hug until we lost our hate
…remembering the parchment paper prayer list hanging on our living room door
…remembering the time Jasmine almost killed me by throwing an antique stapler at my head
…remembering the pain of cancer and the joy of remission
…remembering the loneliness of dorkdom and the community of family
…remembering the power of remembering

As I was gathering my stuff to leave, I casually mentioned that no matter our given circumstances in life, I don’t want to care. I don’t want to care about what I have or what I want. I want to live a life free from finding value in the opinions of other.

Then Jas said something profound, almost at profound as her overdone earrings, B, we need to care. We have to care! We care so much that we don’t have to care and to live our lives focused on the future while remembering our past.

To know where we are going, we need to remember where we are from. Where are you going? Where are you from?

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